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I am really thinking this is geting old. Friends promise to come chill, they are gonna come party you found a spot or even just a random day. They should chill with you right? Well aprently either I am a really shitty friend or there just not really my friends. I don't know what to think of this shit anymore really. I always get my hopes up an than just if I'm not offering the most free stuff an the most exciteing place they will go anywhere else but where I am at. I am so fucking sick of this god damn shit. I just want to fucking go home right now just get ou go the fuck home delete all these numbers from my phone an fuck them all. Rebuild what is left of my tattered life, an make something with people who really like me for who I am not what I can give them. I don't fucking know a life where I am not fucking hella god damn bored all night long. Everything is going to shit everything is just shit I give up fuck it all I should just fucking gonna go home. Fuck but if I leave I get the whole guilt trip bule shit. It's fucked, I just am what supposed to sit at there every bec an call an just not do shit else unless there around. I am left with but one ultimate thing to be a fucking dick. Fuck it I guess I'll just tell them all to lick my god damn ballz, I am sick of puting up with being walked on an treated like crap. FUCK ALL THIS SHIT!!!!
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vanessa if your lookin for the enteries they start about 4 lower
anyway yah still haveing a hard time but I think its because it all came crashing down today that there really is a bigger problem and that it really won't be easy. Like I was so sure lieing was all there was really an that was the big problem with me. It turns out you know only the big problem aobut me was lieing but with me is something else. Err I am so worried about how me an her stand i don't know an it drives me nuts but I guess all I can do is work on myself an hope I get to see her this weekend. Meh I don't anymore my feelings are so eratic anymore maybe knowing all this I can finally become the stable guy i know I can be an be the loveing man I know I am at heart.
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13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
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hi agin Vanessa if your reading this the first entry I wrote is down write above the one about you from months ago it is from earlier today.
Well my mom an I just got back from shoping, I have a apointment to go see my shrink on thursday at 10, I hope that she can help me figure some stuff out. I hope the my problems vanessa can understand because I do love her an I do want us to work I just need some time this week an maybe longer to figure this out. I just hope she she decides she made the right decition to be with me. I don't want to scare her off I just need to fix the big problems in my life now. I don't know what the big problem is but it is something big I can feel it an have been able to for awhile now. I am gonna atleast try to pin point it this week. Set small goals each day like my one write now is to "get to the point where I can see happiness in the future" I have been "happy" but that was fixin my small flaws like lieing. Those may seem like big problems an they are, but I have a bigger one, I don't know what it is for sure, but i need to find out. Like geting a job an geting a degree is a small problem it will make me happier for a lil bit but this bigger thing will fix me I know it will it will just take work to pin point it, an I spent so much time trying to say it was just these littler things because well it felt like fixing them was working but when there was nothing else to fix an I still felt off well now it is time to takle it an make me all the man I can be.
To vanessa
I hope you can find the strength an the will to be by my side through this. I don't as always expect you to but I do love you an hope you will. Maybe this is why you feel off because you can sence there is still something wrong with me as I can. I do not know that you will stay by me I just hope in my heart you will, you are the apple of my eye an I want us to come out of this stronger than ever. I hope you can find in your heart what your feeling off about, I know maybe this will seem like I'm just makeing something up to make your problem fall to the backround I am not an I am still hear to talk to about whgy you feel off I do not ecpect nor feel it is your duty to help me through this i don't belive anyone but myself can so I will only call you when I feel I can make your needs my top priority I love you an hope to be in a place that I can see you this weekend an I'll try an call you tonight after 7 or you can call me,
Love always
Tim
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O man my life has been so wierd lately. Only those of you out there who knew me in person would know I had a HUGE lieing problem. Well I with the help of Vanessa kicked it about a month ago now completly, and a few other of my bad habbits. That was a big thing but I am still left with so much pain, I am currently waiting for the councler from the hospital to call me back because well I had kinda a bad weekend, and as much as I do belive vanessa will think me being down as something to do with her I finally relize mostly it doesn't. More it is that well quiting lieing an a number of other lil things that I fixed were just that little problems, that by fixing made me a lil happier for a lil bit but now I have fixed most lil things an I am now needing to fix myself that is a big ass thing. That is throwing me way down the tube into like well really sad shit. I know it is gonna take councling good friends, good times, an maybe a support group to do I just don't know if I have that time I don't know if I can live like this, alive that much longer. Like I need a job, I need money, I need my GED, I need to go back to DVC an become a chef, But first I need to fix myself or at least start. I will do it I will be ok.. I hope for now I just need to ask for the love an support of my friends sorry for everything I have put you guys through as well I love you all.
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I met a girl. Ok thats never news for me I go through chicks like TP yes I know, its tim its expected, but no this is def diffrent. It's wierd I've only felt this way about 2 other girls befor its this special feeling it doesn't come along very often an I love it, it intoxicates me as does she. It's amazing we have been seeing eachother for err 3 weeks now, an still never a dull moment I like that it's special. However I have been broke an that is not a very tim like attribute an it sucks I don't like being with out money, I like being able to take care of my firneds gf's ect... An I can't an it has kinda of a casteration type feeling to it, you know I feel like I'm being taken care of an its err wierd. I can deal though, I have also been informed the new awsome ass mechanic job I've had for about a month is laying off the entire workforce because we have been baught out and I should seek new empoloyment possiblities which I am doing and that means more brokeness in the future. This is not fun man I don't like it I want to have more cash on me an do the gifts an cute dinners heh didn't think I'd be saying that agin blargh. But I mean she has made an baught me dinner so many times an I feel like I'm useing her or afrid she will think I am an it blows. Anyway I dunno this is not some of my best writeing more or less its just to write some stuff down that has been in my head an it ain't flowin the way I wanted it its comeing out like a robot is speakin not likes its comeing from some place deep within.I am a firm beliver in the idea that writeing should flow from within why won't this shit start flowin out. O yah an my mom kicked me out for good this time I think although I have been liveing some place else she though out all of my stuff an I kinda want to shoot her in the face woo. At least she claims she kept my art work an computer in the garage but I don't belive her for some reason. I want to have vennessa in my arms right now that sounds nice hopefully I can see her tonight that would rock my face off the hinges. I am fallin for a gril this is not me SOMEBODY stop me lol. anyway yah we got hammerd together last night was truly fun specialy cuz her roomate is dateing agood buddy of mine we all went into septret bedrooms an had nice hammerd ass sex twas fun as fuck YAY for fucking. Although we did destroy her room tottaly it is awsome. Yah I need to not feel so sappy I missed her after a day dude thats not me I'm a playa or so I though o poo.
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So this thing is for a class, got it guys? So I gots to keet dis thing somewhat clean but still somehow explain the goings on of my last 2 weeks in deatial. Like what have I learned? or who have I hung with or what has gone on? Obviously I can't write in everything I'd prolly goto jail or at least the outter rings of hell. So I'll put in as most as I can an with as much detail as I can ya dig?
Well Let me try an re-count tuesday 2 weeks ago..I don't know if this will be possible. I honestly am haveing trouble recounting this day 2 weeks ago most likely cuz it was a boreing day like any other day.I can start tuesday last week I think. Herm well not this weekend but the one before it I was so partying first I got a late start on friday an didn't make it to the sac party tell well 2 am. We got in danced it up for 2 hours was hella fun. Gotta love sac kids at times, cept there always on a good deal of drugs fuckin 15 yr old crack tards. Than slept alot saturday an at night got dressed an was off to look emo at a concert but didn't end up makeing it an instead went off to fruit cocktail. It was pretty cool lotta fun lotta gay men :-p. Than yah ok the weekend befor this one I had been in LA for nocternal wonderland. and the week after at skewl had been very nice an uneventfull. Lets see last week was prtty awsome i got good shit done was grogy on monday an didna goto class. Herm ok this week I have been uber grooychy an mean an more cuz shit just went wrong this weekend. A frined od'd still is in a comma in LA, another LA buddy got jackt an it just ain't cool. Just laot has been on my mind, plus someone I used to consider a really good buddy is haeving an uber drug problem an we can't seem to get him to stop. When he is useing he is this awfole horrible mean ass guy. If he is sober for a week or more though he is this awsome really nice guy I don't get it we just want our joe back. Yah I guess that is it I jsut have been thinkin alot more about where my life is going an what Is going to happen with an just I dunno how am I gonna live alone. I want to I need out I think I'm so cranky cuz my mom puts so much stress in my life. Alot of people get it but alot don't, she just stresses me the fuck out.
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So girls have been geting me down lately. I have had dates an they have all gone bust if the date even did show up. I found 2 girls who I like a nice amount. One of them I kinda did go on a date on but nothing happend and it didn't seem possible for it to go anyplace so I never called her after an have talked to her online like 2 times. The other is just this really cool really open minded chick who likes everything I like well mebbe not the raveing but she can stand it, but I've been told all she wants is to be frineds, an that sucks but i can take that to I think. Than like the rest is just me needin to stop haveing crushes man its lame. I got a fo hwak an blac k hair with a blonde spot I look like an emo boy an I am emo.
My frined Od'd down in la an is in a comma I'm worried I've been crying for 2 days. Damn sorry guys there is alot on my mind. Just I dunno fucken he said he quit tweakin months ago promised even that I get a call from his frined late last night that he od'd an is in a comma. I can't stop thinkin about it its scarey shit.
I think me emma an kate are going to the gilman this weekend who is with us? we are geting alchole an lots of it. GOGO super drunks. If i die of to much alchole well at least my life is going well now.
Comment away. You comment here I'll start commenting more on urs I promise
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I went out with a cute girl this week on wedsday:-p we saw colatiral an made merry twas fun.. anoyyed my frined at work at the food stand near there..we were at the METREON she left. I stayed we made more merry an I went to john's. An on the way or a lil befor it all camr crashing down for a bit. It wasn't like how it used to be where everything wentto shit an all I wanted to do was die an scream an yell. It a much more mellow depression but depression I think it was needed though. I just need to get my own place my mom is driveing me nuts shelly is right. The next day I got to hang out with shelly and I got to see her one tuesday this week as well. Her an david are doing awsome I'm so happy to get to see them still. Becca looks awsome she has chnaged alot since I last saw her all for thebetter glad to see she is happy an doing well its nice. My job is going well both of them, and thats good. School is going double well and just life in general is going pretty smooth. I still have that lil issue of girls but I always will I'm just not one who finds alot of them atractive enought to date well not even that not enough find me attractive enoguh to date an the few who do aren't very bright most of the time an I Hate stupid people. If they can't make me laugh or think or smile..fuckem. Yah this weekend is looking like it will shape up nicely. Supposed to hang with john an people today see movies tha noff to RAVE HEART mebbe in a KILT with some concord buddies. Tommrow I get to get laura from the airport she is now arriveing from NC. YAY she is here for a year :D that will be some amazing adventures let me tell ya. I just man my life is so blowing up in a good way right now an I feel as though my mom is holding me back an I don't want that shit. Well anyway I am gonna get back to work i don't think my boss would approve of me on the comp off the hook like I am but w/e thats me. Someone hit me up if there is a concert tonight or tommrow you will be at mebbe I'll go with an we can kick it an skank or mosh or some thing :-D byes hunnies
<3 tim
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Damn I never write here but I always say I will more but I won't. So I went to nocternal in LA very glad I did.
We had an amazing time, they had trpise artist flying over our heads as dj's like donauld glau, rabbit in the moon, and many others went off on the decks. I have not had this much fun at a rave in years. It was an amazingly good time. I wish you all could have been there to enjoy this time with me.
I am in class right now school is going good this year to so far. I am looking for a new job my current one is boreing but still It's a job I have cash its nice.
I still need my car back. I am waiting for it to get fixed. I might be going out to a feww parties this weekend but prolly also hiting up gilman on saturday night. That should prove awsomeness.
I have had that loenly feeling alot more often lately, you know missing haveing a special someoen but at the same time I like being the wildd an crazy single bro lol. Dude life of being a teenage guy is cunfzzleing YUP. I love life it is a sexay good time yup yup.
So who wants to chill this week/ weekend or needs a ride to gilman saturday or a rave hit me up. Leave comments I will try an comment on your entries for you commenting on mine. I really all your guys enteries they enterain me when I am bored. Plus I enjoy keeping up on my frineds lives atleast somewhat. I miss o so many of you good bye.
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Hey guys I know I really haven't posted as much as I used to sorry for that but IDK, I guest post whoreing isn't as fun or I'm just geting lazier. Anyway I have a choice this weekend.
A: Goto LA with Dan an goto Nocternal Wonderland. I already have a ticket but there will be alot more expensies prolly.
With all world class dj's though that are almost never all together under one roof something not often seen. The world class DJ's are from every genere of Electronica music an they are all headliner matierial.
B: Goto Liquid vinal recordings Happy Together 3 with all hardcore DJ's my fav kind of Electronica, an maybe take Some frineds plus be among more people I know for prolly less money altogether plus be in my own area. With a few worldclass hardcore dj's never to preform in the BayArea.
Also I miss the gilman/Shows with frineds An geting wasted at the with mah buddies. Ok so old Show buddies on here. Is therea good show this weekend? Are you down to go? Are you down to all go the same night? Are you all down to get drunbk as fuck with me?
LoL
Other than that my life is going awsome right now. Being home is working out really well, my mom an I are hardly fighting at all, we haven't once yet. I love haveing my room an a bed back my life is just going alot smooter. I will be in berkley after school today if any of you berkley cats see this b4 this afternoons plz leave a comment or some shizz an let me know somehow WE WILL CHILLAX :-D Yupps. If you guys also ever want to do anything once agin just call my house an leave a msg or ask for me its (925) 942-0402 yup
So last weekend I went to EvE's house on friday night it was awsome. When I got thur her an Sophie were a lil drunk but it quickly faded away, there awsome chicks. We chilled an just basicly bummed around tell about 1am when my frined johnnyR picked me up, and I went back to my place. Saturday I went with my mom to go shoping and got all this pretty smelling body wash shampoo shit an AXE, cuz I like to smell pretty O so pretty an Witty an..... anyway yah I'm clean WOOT. Than wI showered cleaned up an went shoping for food with her than to TNL-The Next Level. It was cool met up with samantha(pinguine) an hung for a bit invited her to come with me an johnny that night to There Was Peace Love Unity And Respect(aka the plur party) at TELIC. She said sure asked joe he insisted on comeing along with no money either. So I paid for her an joe to get in 40$ wow but she will pay me back for sure I dunno about him than let him another 20 once inside now its up to 60 bucks plus 10 for lunch for samantha = 70$. Meh I also bought johnny a ticket +10 dollars 80 tottel spent to bring frineds an be nice. Plus gave johnny 25 for gas an other expensise I owed him 105 spent this weekend. Lent my frined tristan at the party 40 bucks so she could goto Nocternal Wonderland now spent 145 this weekend, But I know she will pay me back to so no worries. Gave Dan 20 bucks in money owed to him now up to 165 spent this weekend. Bought my nocternal ticket +35$ now upto 180 spent this weekend not geitng any of that back less I sell it an goto HT3. Ok so yah THANK GOD FOR JOBS! WOW ok thats not happening another weekend EVER fuck that. I need some of that money back fuckers lol. Ok anyway I had an awsome time at the party working security they made me a lil badge an everything which was awsome. I drove the shuttel from 9pm-10pm and 12am-1am and 5am-7am. Also worked security well inside always fun. 2 girls decieded it was a good idea to mix a 5th of vodka GHB an 2CI(10times stronger than 2cb) they were non responsive an completly out. They finally came around everything was ok an they were banned from TELIC for life. That scared me REALLY badly. Anyway What are my buddies doing this weekend POST an tell me or call we need to chill friends I miss you all alot.
PS: I NEED SOME COMMENTS. I = COMMENT WHORE!!!!!!!!
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YES KIDDOS IT IS TRUE
Tim has got hit net back YAY!!!!!!!!! Awsome as this is I now have things to do all day everyday, they include
1 Checking Email every 10 minites
2 Spending countless hours on AIM doing nothing
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3 Going on RM Friendster MySpace And Face The Jury way to often
I love life
In other news I am working the PLUR party at telic on saturday. I also may be hiting up the party RAVE at the crackhouse later tonight. That would be pimp 2quart always does good cheat parties. I also plan on makeing it to Nocternal Wonderland, can anyone fine me a ride, please? Also I am In dvc an working now, WORKING SUCKS MY LEFT NUT. Yah thought I'd share that with you all. I still neet to goto a punk show. I have crush type feelings for a pretty awsome lil punk girl I wish I wasn't such a panzy. Laura is comeing to live in this area on Sept. 18th I'll be at the oakland air port to pick her prettty lil ass up, awsome. I am doing awsome so far with my workload and I belive that will continue. I am now liveing with my mom agin as I menitioned an all is going well with that I love it. I now have good food to eat AND a bed YAY *happy dance*. I can't wait for saturday I get to drive shuttel an take some buddies to thur first rave. I have met many awsome new ppl on Rave Match an on LJ It makes me smile. If your a new person I met COMMENT don't be shy <3. So life is teh roxxers bye yalls!
<3 Tim
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I dunno A shit load has happend since I last updated
Well I can't update to much guys I have no net at my place. I love you all very much you are the people that make my world go round for sure, I need to spend more time with a few of you out thur but you can comment about that ppl. I'm haveing one of those mornings where everything feels fucken awsome like whoa. I just have a whole bright sunny out look on life right now I love it much. I want to hang out with some ppl today heather eve mebbe since I am in berkely right now. I love my berkely girls they are all one of a kind an just beautiful. You guys rock my world we need to hang more cool kats, mebbe I can teach the eve to skate better an emma to :-p. I went to a pretty fun party last night it went tell like 4am. I mean it was somewhere I'd been alot b4 but still very entertaining cuz it was laura croft themed I mean that is just amusing in an of itself, and yes it twas a rave. I might be going to bottom of the hill tonight, if you want to go to comment or something IM me Neversleepalone1 on aim. I am working at the TELIC warhouse PLUR party with dj DDR next saturdaay you all should be thur. It is in oakland right off the alameda exit it pwns. My life has become kinda a Fuckit I'll try anything once kinda thing. I mean basicly I was sXe tell I was damn near 18 an I kinda see it as almost, you only live once live it up why the fuck not try shit once just don't be a dumb ass about shit. I like to be adventrous an random though since as of late I have had no car it has made things harder, alot harder. I mean I miss the trips full of my buddies in my car doing random shit at random hours that is what life is about man a series of moments. Hahaha Dogma quoteage right thur. I might just put on my tight pants today an attempt to chill with some of the berkely girls I love o so much. I start school on tuesday lame sauce. I just wanna I dunno keep on rockin but the real world you know it comes first. I still am not tottely at grips that it is gonna start back up you know? I am kinda babling here but hey you all love hearing me babel right? :-p ARgh if I could go over all the things I've learned about life in the past hmm 9months. I feel like I have matured more than I could have ever belived things even last december seem like distant past of a lil kid memory or some shit. I was so much I dunno I would have kicked my ass I duno I as a lil punk more so than now lol. Well I dunno I could keep babling but I feel it is old now so comment away an make me feel loved even if you have to fake it, ;-)
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damn dude thats all I can say
Right now I miss audra. More than I really knew actully, like I don't know I knew it sucked not seeing her anymore an all but than Iwrote a comment to her. That so made me relize an see how much I fucken miss her. Not just her though all my old buddies even EVE dude cuz well eve is fucken hot. I miss all of those guys I can't even remember all there names its been so long. All I know is
I want to goto a punk show with all of them, including audra an get royaly wasted an just enjoy how much we all are emo. Seriously right now I feel like FUCK PLUR. The fucken rave drama is so insane. You would never belive how fucken hatefull the rave scene is under the covers unless you threw parties. Than I gurentee you would hate it. Unless you roll ballz all the time cuz serioiusly it is a fucken fake ass happy I can't deal with right now. I can't deal with thorwing these awsome parties with shaddy ppl and loseing like 3k I can't. I can't deal with people judging me on well my rave goes off. I can't deal with all of the fucken drama an bullshit with shaddy promoters an djs that won't show up on time for there fucken set. Worst is dj's that ask for outragious payments for a fucken small party where is the rave love. Enough of that enough of raveing everyweekend pplz lets go out lets get trashed lets goto a punk show. Lets just chill at someones house an get faced, but if i see one fucken beaded braclet I will fucken GO OFF! Not really I like alot of my raver beads they have good memories of sick ppl. Ok man comment if your down to chill an just have fun, not nessicarly get wasted cuz to be honest alcohle tastes like way much ass. I prolly wouldn't even drink but hey I tlak big lol. Just movies something movie nights with all of you leave your numbers dawgs an names I may just have lots them. Just leave something leave a comment. I want us all to have fun mebbe this wekend or week if possible. O in other news my firned monica flaked agin on comeing to visit me from texas. This is the 3rd time.. Wow I feel awsome. I hope to see all your smileing faces soon. Sorry about my ignorence in the past. I will still proll goto a rave now an than just to see my other group of frineds but dude it seems like its just a faze I go through now an than, the dumb fucken "I'm a raver" faze. Fuck that shit. O an some asshole who claimed to be my best frined told my mom I sold drugs. Wow some frined. FUCKERS. anyway in summary
1:need to have a gillman night with all the old ppl,or Imusicast night
2:need to have long talks with audra on phone agin an get shitty with her
3:need to rave less it causes stree like WHOA
4:Love an miss you all plz reply to this plzzzz
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If you and I were alone in my room right now, what would we be doing?
(Now post this in YOUR LJ, and see what people wanna do with you.)
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[mondayjuly19th2004@2;33am] |
I think I'm done ravein.
I want my pre rave life back. Punk shows frineds Hard core shows FRINEDs. My old frineds the ones that I always had something to do with. Ravers just live to far away most of the time. Or they are maor fucking drug addicts. Fuck drugs Fuck Weed I am now like 4 months sober off everything even alchole and off weed an other shit LONGER I love being sober. Not that so much as I just don't like being fucked up or the proses of geting fucked up it just isn't for me. I just Idk I tried it i was bad an I want my old buddies an life back. I want ppl to post comments agin I just I dunno.I know I will still rave sometimes but not like this bull shit I've been doing friday an saturday nights. Last night was the night I hit 6fucken raves! WTF was I thinking I was doing cuzI had to flyer for one of our up comeing events. THE LAST event I will be doing or helping with. It is GRAND MASTER FLASH and 2 BAD MICE headling at the mandela center in sf 3 rooms 3k+ ppl and a full bar for the 21 plus it will be rocking. anyway PPL COMMENT I MISSS YOU LETS CHILL OLD FRINEDS
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[tuesdayjuly6th2004@5;40pm] |
yah right
anyway.
Drugs are bad, I tried one it got boreing. I won't say it wasn't fun but it got borieng an even more so imbaressing. I also have seen it destroy too many frineds lately well not this drug but drugs in general. I guess they can be cool to try out but seriously icko. I just I'm sick of mind altering chemicals even alchhole it just eww. I have said this b4 but for once I mean it. I am not sayin "I swear of drinking" there is a time an a place for that in moderation but everything else I am pretty much done with its just not worth it. I watched osme body od at a party this weekend I cried. I had to helo carry her out to the ambulence. Why you ask becauyse her frined was too fucked up on drugs her self to care. It hurt it was bad. Well I have been good I, have my own production company that I am partner in we throw raves an mange dj bookings its pretty sweet. We are called FMK productions its pretty fun to work this way. I love life I love the people in my life excpet for the few who insist on talkin shit becuz there life may have went to shit well mine got better an not just better but awsome, to you 3 fuck you. Anyway Aly i still miss you. Nicole I'll be raveing with you saturday, and everyone else CAREBEAR PARTY ON SATURDAY 9PM TO 4AM gonna rock the house it is at the corner of bush an vannesse in SF come one come all <3. I seriously all of you we need to get togehter every1 I miss you all. You can normaly find me by calling 1 925 381 2055 an asking for tim I hate cell phones myself so I don't own one though my company is soon forceing me to get one :( ewwwww anyway talk to you all soon byes.
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